Lately, I've been staying busy. Busier than usual. I mean, I'm always busy being a mom. That's for sure. But I've been pushing myself more than I had before.
First, let me inform or update those of you who don't know what's up with me. I am a mom and an artist. I have a goal to complete 10,000 hours of art while facing the challenges of being a new mom. Check out my YouTube video about it here.
But to be honest, things had been slow goin' on those 10,000 hours. I mean, I would plug away at them here and there as much as I could. Or, rather, as much as I believed I could. But after I read I know How She Does It by Lauren Vanderkam, included in her book are many examples and stories based on a study she did, of how successful women are managing their professional and personal lives. I realized there is time in the day. There is the same amount of time that anyone else has. It is entirely up to me on how I choose to use them. Yes, me. Now, when you're mom, those are hard words to hear. Especially for the first baby, in the first year. I just know how exhausted and drained I would feel in those early months. And I still feel that way. But this awareness of time has suddenly jolted me into some serious momentum. Life is short. Follow your dreams. And hustle like a mofo!
Here is the other side of the story. I also just read Steven Pressfield's, The War of Art. And in the first section of that book he writes all about the ways in which we resist. When reading this, especially as a mom, my resistance to doing my art would be me saying, "I really ought to get this house cleaned" or "Damn, I gotta run these errands". You know what I'm talking about! We all do that shit. We resist for some reason. Well, what I wanted to write here is that the other side of my story is that even though I am picking up my hustle, I am still struggling with resistance.
I have been staying busy by making videos on YouTube and getting this blog going. And, of course, all the tasks that come along with doing that: marketing, editing, writing, planning, social media. Don't get me wrong. I have really been having fun doing all of this. I really hope to bring some inspiration to people. But there is this nagging voice in the back of my head that is saying, "yeah, that's great that you're doing that and all, but where is your work?"
I have a body of work that I have been trying to get to for far longer than I want to admit to. I can see it. I have seen me paint it. I've seen it hung on walls. I've seen people viewing the body of work. Yet, I have resistance. I hear myself, "well, I'll just keep working on my technique a little longer". So I decide to keep myself busy doing art exercises. I continue to resist.
But heck, I figure for now, at least I am getting some momentum. And for now, I'm gonna keep doing these exercises. I don't think I need to go into the importance of fundamentals. I mean, how else do you train for a marathon, right?
If you want to check out my YouTube channel and all the Art Exercises I will be creating, check out the link here. I hope you enjoy these basic exercises if you too are battling resistance and need something to do until you win the fight.